Ramblings of an Insomniac

Mor lagi koriyo na shok Amar royeche karmo, amar royeche biswalok Mor patro rikto hoy nai Sunye re koribo purno, Ei brato bohibo sodai UtkonTho amar lagi keho jodi protikkhiya thake, Sei dhanya koribe amake Suklo pakkho hote ani, Rajanigandhar brinto khani Je pare sajate Se amare dekhibare pay, Ashim khomay, Bhalo mondo milaye sokoli tahari pujay Aponare dite chai boli tomare ja diyechinu tar Peyechho nisshesh odhikar... Hetha mor tiley tiley daan Korun muhurtoguli GanDush bhoriya kore pan Hridi anjali bhore momo Ogo tumi nirupomo He aiswarja baan tomare ja diyechinu Se tomari dan Grahan korecho joto tato rini korecho amay He bondhu, biday.....

I can remember when we walked together Sharing a love I thought would last forever Moonlight to show the way so we can follow Waiting inside her eyes was my tomorrow Then somethin’ changed her mind, her kisses told me I had no lovin’ arms to hold me Every day I wake up, then I start to break up Lonely is a man without love Every day I start out, then I cry my heart out Lonely is a man without love Every day I wake up, then I start to break up Knowing that it’s cloudy above Every day I start out, then I cry my heart out Lonely is a man without love

"Ami tomay bhalobasi, tumi amay baso na," "Bhalobasa mane Archie's Gallery" aro kato definition... hajar, hajar boi lekha tai niye... kintu amar kache ki? amader kachhe ki? Bhalobasa mane ki akjon bisesh kauke miss kora, na ki bohu-r modhye ak jon ke khuje berano... Bhalobasa mane ki jake bhalobasa jay tar jonye nijeke biliye dewa, na ki bhalobasa mane sara diner prithibir sathe judhho seshe fera santir niR? nijer moner modhye akTa sthir biswas je "ha, ache akjon, akTa jayga jekhane k(N)ada jay..." kanna-r jonye bhalobasa, na ki bhalobasar jonye kanna? bhalobasar modhye mukti, na ki bhalobasa mane bandhon? "Ajasra bandhon majhe ami lobhibo mukti-r swad" "Amar mukti aloy aloy...." Mukti mane ki? Freedom? Freedom from what? Freedom of what? Doing my own will? How do I justify it? If my free will hurts somebody I love then is that worth it? If being myself hurts my love then is that worth it? But if I can't do what I feel then will...

EkTu sujog, EkTu asha Jibon kh(N)oja, jibone bhasha Ei je haschi, kichu likhchi Kano korchi? sab dh(N)oyasha Ak gheye sab nesha ar pesha Future nil, tobu bhalobasa haThat meghla, haThat akla lukochuri ar kaTakuTi khala akla chhat, chhai ar dh(N)oya 'Tara Dhaka megh, meghe Dhaka tara' Ami ar tui, fer money pora Raat jaga chokh, kobitay moRa Chh(N)eRa chiThi koTa, kichu chhoTo katha Mon kamoner chena chena byatha Ami ar tui, tui ar ami ChhoTTo asha, kobitay bhasha|

Amar money akTa jantrana ache| Jodi konodin dhorte pai take! AkTa chhaya chhaya kuyashar moto, K(N)aachaa koylar dh(N)oyar moto, AspashTo, Aabchhaa| Dakha jay na, Kintu chokh jala kore| Niyeche keu amar jalar bhaag? Bhebeche kakhono, kothay byatha? Sotti- Ami ato hatabhagya! Keu ki asbe na kakhono? Bhorer sisir bheja ThanDa haat Amar kopale rekhe, je bolbe- "Eso haat buliye debo|" Ami takhon taar Th(N)oTe TaaTkaa fuler gondho sh(N)ukbo, kh(N)ujbo|

Chinno patar sajai tarani, aka aka kori khala Anmona jano dik balikar bhasano megher bhala Jamon halay alasa chhande kon kheyalir kon anande Sakale dhorano amer mukul jhorano bikelbala|| Je batas nay fuler gandho, bhule jay dinseshe, tar hate di amar chhando, kotha jay ke jane se Lakhyabihin sroter dharay jeno mor sakol-i haray Chirodin ami pather neshay patheyo korechi hala..... kaday kano? kano? ami kadte chai, kintu kano pari na, bridhTi te bhijte chai.. bhalobasi... kintu kano? liberation? na ki sudhui akTa ajuhaat.. chokher jol lukanor? gaan Ta kano muchre, ningre day bhitore? boro besi sotti bole? kintu tai jodi hobe, tahole songi kuji kano? patheyo na thakle ki path chola jay? seTa bekaar romanticism noy ki? jibonpurer pothik re bhai... kono deshei sakin nai.. kothao amar moner khabor pelam na.... kheyal poka jakhon amar mathay nore chore.... amar taser ghorer basati je omni bhenge pore takhon taluk chere muluk chere hoi je ghorer baar bondhu re na ki janam se banjara hun bandhu...